Day 2, 3 & 4

Hello World, 
I just want to let you know that I apologize for slacking on my blogging.  It has been a busy week, but I do want to say that I am doing well with my diet and exercise routine. My eating is much better than ever before.  I have managed to cut out all of the bad food in my diet.  The cravings are killing me, but I sneak in a few flavorful additions (such as peanut butter with my celery sticks) just to help me get over the mental hunger pains.  Today I caved because I was dying to eat some rice. Instead of eating my mother's puerto rican rice (seasoned white rice with gandules cooked in oil) I ate brown rice from chipotle.  Yes, I ordered a chicken bowl but I only ate half of it and left out the sour cream.  Progress in my eyes! The chipotle bowl is probably the worst meal choice I've had all week so far. View my work out logs below for days 2, 3, & 4!

Day 2
-Elliptical Resistance 5 30 mins 2.7 miles
-Torso Rotation 50 lbs 3 sets of 15 on both right and left side
-Ab Core 20 lbs 3 sets of 15 for both sides
-Stair Master 10 minutes
-3 Arm exercises with 10 lb weights.  1 set of 15 each.

Day 3
-Elliptical Resistancy 5 2.5 miles
-Torso Rotation 50 lbs 3 sets of 15 on both right and left side
-Free motion abdominal 3 sets of 15 (30, 35, 40 lbs)
-Ab leg lifting with the blue circle thing 20 straight 10 on each side

Day 4 (I worked out with my personal trainer for an hour)
-Fat burning exercises which included jump rope, burpees, squats, etc)

Until Next Time! I'll get better at this updating thing! I promise!

Day 1: What a success!

It's 11:06 pm and I can hear my stomach growling, but I 'm ignoring it. I had a very good day today. It began with an awesome workout at Xsport. For my first day back at the gym, I think I did pretty well. (gym activity below). After the gym, I did a little grocery for the week. I am using ideas from a meal plan I found on blogilates.com. I think its a pretty good guide to help me cut the fat and greasy foods out of my life. Today went well, but the cravings I'm having right now tell me that continuing this is going to be tough work. So before I give in to the hunger, I am off to bed and wanted to end my blog for today with a little inspiration from a friend of mine "you can train insane or remain the same". Goodnight.

Today's Meals

Salad- spinach, romaine lettuce, avocado, tomato, red & green peppers, and chicken

Greek yogurt with strawberries

Talapia, Sweet Potato, & Mixed Vegetables

Today's Workout

Eliptical (weightloss setting) 30 minutes...a little over 2 miles -resistance 5

Leg Curls 30 lbs. 3 sets of 15

Leg Sled 60 lbs. 3 sets of 15

Squats with 20 lb bar over shoulders. 3 sets of 15

Squats with 20 lb weight front center. 3 sets of 15.

Stair Maste Level 5. 10 minutes. 

30 minute Ab Attack Class. 

5 minutes of Yoga (I checked it out for the first time ever.....yeah its not for me)

Day 0: My Sad Reality

This is me.  Its July 28, 2013. I am 25 years old and weigh 1?? lbs.(I will weigh myself tomorrow at the gym and edit this later).  I have been comfortable in this body for way too long now, and as much as I would like to blame the extra weight on my son (who is now 4 years old), the truth is that it is all my fault.  I have somehow made myself believe a billion of excuses of why I should feel comfortable in my body. 1) I am a pretty good dresser and know what clothes I can and cannot wear in order to look amazing 2) In Chicago, theres tons of other bigger girls and I happen to look better than the majority of the young women I see when I go out 3) The only girls who have better bodies than me are the ones who haven't had any kids yet....I could go on with this list for hours.  So here I am, beginning this blog as a first step of my weight loss journey, no more denial.  I am fat and I need to do something about it.

So what pushed me to do this? For months, (maybe even years), I have signed up for the gym on occasion, quit multiple times, started a jogging schedule, struggled through various diets, started zumba, tried working out with a buddy, etc. Clearly self motivation and wanting this for myself has never actually worked.  Who would've known that a boy...yes I said it, a young man who I am currently seeing, has opened my eyes to this sad realization.  Now before I hear the he's an asshole, and you should forget him, and don't let him make you feel insecure stuff comes along, here me out.  Yes, I know a guy should accept you for you, blah blah blah, I get that. 1) I doubt anything will ever come of our relationship 2) He's way younger than me 3) It's summer and he's a lot of fun..... so with that being said here me out.  He pretty much said if I lost weight I would be perfect.  He said this in different ways multiple times and hinted that I should start working out on multiple occasions.  After yelling at him, calling him an asshole, and explaining that he shouldn't talk to a woman that way and accept me for me. His response was simple.  He doesn't lie and I would look much more beautiful if I lose weight. I shrugged it off, said fuck you, and laughed it off.  Then yesterday, we went to Bar Louie to eat. I ordered a salad to show that I was trying.  We had a good time and then two young girls walked in and sat at the table near us. Granted my young date, didnt pay any attention to them and was still acting super cute towards me, But of course, the insecurity hit me.  The girls were staring him down (might I add, my date is extremely handsome. 6'3, great skin, and a killer smile.  One of the girls was pretty.  I of course think I am prettier, but she had two things going for her: she was his age and had a pretty skinny body. He didn't pay any attention to her and gave me no reason to feel insecure, but when I got home,  I had a nice long stare down with the mirror and all I could think about was "he's right".

So tomorrow is Monday and like any person who is going to attempt to work out or start a diet, I will start my weight loss tomorrow morning. Let's see how bad I actually want this.